Does Mona Lisa wants to get married? 2

So, does she? one time she thinks she does, and the other she believes she doesn't. It's the willingness to give up her dream of being such an important shot in science.
But when she thinks about it, why does she want to be an important shot in science?
is it self satisfaction, or is it greed, or does it have something more valuable to it?
why is she seeking PhD anyway, and why here in the States?
is it the adventure, is it being stubborn?
I was once told I am the most stubborn person ever, I didn't understand, as I know I am not, so she said (the one who told me so) you are not stubborn with people about your opinion, you are stubborn with yourself, you want to force yourself into too many things, and into doing what is hard and difficult, just to challenge yourself.
I thought about it.....Well she is sort of right, I did make some choices in life that made it a little less easy than it could be, or as I like to put it in Robert Frost words: "two roads diverged in a wood and I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference."
Yet I tend to be simple, I believe that the most intelligent answer to a question is the simplest one you can think of.

Back to Mona Lisa and her marriage, I think both me as the 9 years old and the 15 years old girls* are right, there is no contradiction,
in my opinion, I agree with me as a 15 years old girl, when you get married you need not stay home, and it is not the end of your job,
YET it's "the" biggest limitation to your pre-set ambition of your career future, and the start of many sacrifices you will ultimately make for your family on the expense of your career.
Returning back to me as a 9 years old girl, I agree with me then too, I still believe that when God blesses me with a child, I would definitely stay home for a couple of years to take care of my baby. It's too stressful to be a full time mom to an infant and at the same time a full time career woman.

Oh my God, as I am writing these words, it just darned on me, the words of one of the scientist in bioinformatics, she was awarded in a conference I attended for her lifetime achievements in physics and bioinformatics, she said that she had to make a shift in her career, and to struggle with learning how to use computers, and abc of programming as that was a more convenient career for her after having her kids, she had to spend more time home, and computer was her only way to it, she can work home, be with her kids, control her time spent working more than being a scientist in the lab with crazy hours.

Oh me, that gives me lots of hope, but then I am back to square one, do I have time to search for my future husband, I don't believe he will come by on a white horse as prince charming, just because I am no snow white myself.

But who knows, may be he would be "riding" a car and we have a crash!! a little pessimistic, I agree, okay let him be walking down the street and I hit him with my car...Okay okay more pessimistic, anyway where ever he is, he'll find me, I hope I can see then that this is him and not just leave..

*see Does Mona Lisa wants to get married? (the first post)