Does Mona Lisa want to get married?

Mona Lisa Smile

The title attracted my attention as my brother used to tell me I have Mona Lisa smile,
I am watching the movie as I am writing the post,
it drove me to think, what am I doing with my life, am I living it, or just watching it go by,
what do I want,
what do I need,
who am I,
seems important questions yet are too silly when I listen to them,

Am I a girl, or a 27 years-old girl, or a graduate student, or an Egyptian, or ........ What?
I know I am all of the above, but is that my "definition",

what is more important to me, to have my PhD and bright career and my dream of being such a successful scientist, is that it?
or as one of the characters in the movie said that being a house wife can be your choice, you don't have to be dumb to be a house wife,
or is it as my mentor told me, don't get married now, you don't need it, really I don't?

So is it a choice a girl has to make, either marriage and family or a bright career,

many might say: why a choice you can have both,

who are you fooling, are you kidding yourself, no one has both,
I am not saying a job, I am not talking about having a career,
I am talking about a "bright" career,

I remember I was once told by a guy, I am too ambitious to settle down and get married,

All of this just made me want to decide once and for all, do I want to get into a relationship and compromise my "bright" career, and settle for a just a job,

do I live for my work, or do I work for living, (sort of do we eat to live, or live to eat analog)

The last 10 years of my life, I have lived to work, study and learn,
I had fun, don't get me wrong, my life wasn't anywhere near dull or boring,

but I had no plans other than being the top of my class for 5 consecutive years of my college study, then excelling in exams to get accepted in USA universities, then proving myself in USA with their tough courses , and finally coping with the lab work and excelling in what I do.

When I was 9 years old, and in a girls talk, I said, I will never leave my child once I have him/her, I will quit working and take care of my family,
years later when I was 15 years old, I was away with my dad, and it was summer and I was the "house lady" (my mum was away) I used to wait for my dad for hours he'd call and say he's on his way home, but comes so late, that I keep on re heating dinner, several times. That day I decided, I will certainly work and have a career of my own , I can't wait for some guy reheating food even if I love him, it would be too much of a sacrifice.

Now at the age of 27, I wonder which girl was right, and I wonder if I will ever have time and energy to get married,

to be continued...