A talk with me about Him

Do i want to go back???

I don't know if i went away in the first place...

Wait, i actually wonder if i was there in the first place...

I don't know anymore,
I was, I wasn't, may be, may be not....

He is waiting, or may be i will be too late for Him to take me back, or may be not...

I once wondered why do people go away from Him...
but now i wonder, what is being close to Him?